Recent thoughts..

Well, I just wanted to let you all know what has been on my mind lately. Just seems to be a tangled web of a little bit of everything mixed together, to be honest. I seemed to be abit more confident in my last blog, but I'll try my best to make this, and future musings, worth reading. I think that I really need to focus on helping myself, become more part of the outside world, and not just be in my own head all the time. To be honest, yes I say that a lot, its a lot harder than it sounds, especially when the environment around me, isn't exactly the best it can be. I wish there was a way, that I could wave a magic wand, although I'm sure a lot of people would want to do this, and make things right. Not talking, major changes, just minor ones, such as a safe/warm place for me, and my cats to go. So, that I don't have to worry about them, if that would happen, because we all know I would still, and we could be happy. And somehow, start my Cat Sanctuary, and take care of more then just my cats. It would be just me, because the only person that I fully trust, lives in another state. Unless, by some great miracle, or wave of my own wand, I could have a place for us, my cats and me, where she lives. That would be fantastic!! If only there was a way, you know?? I'll get there though, somehow. Well there's a will, there's a way, right?? Or so I've heard. Trying hard to keep motivated, even though I'm constantly exhausted. Hope that doesn't sound like I'm whining. Just being honest. These worsening, and new health issues, just have me down a lot, and wondering where I find the strength to get through my days. I know there are people who have it way worse than I do, and if I could change things for them, and keep mine, I would, in a heartbeat. For the good people, anyhow. I think I might look in to seeing how I can go about working towards my Cat Sanctuary. Maybe talk to some people, and see how it goes. Thanks for taking the time to read this.