Been some long stressful months...

I'm sorry that its taken me so long to post again.. I've just been through some very stressful things in these last few months, that have really rocked me.. I haven't been through this much stress in awhile, and it really broke me down.. I'm not sure when my next post will be, but, I will try to soon.. If anyone is even reading, thanks..

Recent thoughts..

Well, I just wanted to let you all know what has been on my mind lately. Just seems to be a tangled web of a little bit of everything mixed together, to be honest. I seemed to be abit more confident in my last blog, but I'll try my best to make this, and future musings, worth reading. I think that I really need to focus on helping myself, become more part of the outside world, and not just be in my own head all the time. To be honest, yes I say that a lot, its a lot harder than it sounds, especially when the environment around me, isn't exactly the best it can be. I wish there was a way, that I could wave a magic wand, although I'm sure a lot of people would want to do this, and make things right. Not talking, major changes, just minor ones, such as a safe/warm place for me, and my cats to go. So, that I don't have to worry about them, if that would happen, because we all know I would still, and we could be happy. And somehow, start my Cat Sanctuary, and take care of more then just my cats. It would be just me, because the only person that I fully trust, lives in another state. Unless, by some great miracle, or wave of my own wand, I could have a place for us, my cats and me, where she lives. That would be fantastic!! If only there was a way, you know?? I'll get there though, somehow. Well there's a will, there's a way, right?? Or so I've heard. Trying hard to keep motivated, even though I'm constantly exhausted. Hope that doesn't sound like I'm whining. Just being honest. These worsening, and new health issues, just have me down a lot, and wondering where I find the strength to get through my days. I know there are people who have it way worse than I do, and if I could change things for them, and keep mine, I would, in a heartbeat. For the good people, anyhow. I think I might look in to seeing how I can go about working towards my Cat Sanctuary. Maybe talk to some people, and see how it goes. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Well Here Goes..

Well, I figured that I better start this, seeing as how I've been telling myself that I would for awhile now.. The thing is, I'm not exactly sure what to write about, or if anyone will even be interested in reading my daily, or weekly musings.. I suppose that I could just try it, and see how it will go.. No harm in that, I suppose, right?? I wonder who will want to here about what's going on with me, or me going on about how Awesome my cats are!! They really are, each one of them, in their own little ways. And me, well, maybe this could be something else, to go with spending time with my cats, and talking with the few people that I love and trust, that I need, to give me a pick me up in my depressing state of mind.. I don't know.. I guess we'll just see.. I just hope that whoever does read this, doesn't think I'm some saddo, I'm really not, just dealing with a lot emotion wise.. Depression, severely, is not something to be taken lightly, I'll tell you that much.. Although, its taken me to a place where I never thought I'd be, I'm trying my best to deal with it, moment by moment, as best I can, in the best ways that I know how.. I guess that's all anyone can do really.. Atleast, that's how I feel about it..